tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-90770434061646844852024-02-07T19:51:29.514-08:00Never Get Your Head Stuck In The Clouds- Aim For A Nebula Instead! Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.comBlogger104125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-74691867438259814692023-02-08T04:29:00.000-08:002023-02-08T04:29:03.962-08:002023 Creative Projects and The Heart of Nature Edits<p>The joys of having spent thirteen years writing stories and slowly developing my writing skill is the constant catch up and backlog of stories. There are soooo many stories I want to get my poorly circulated typing fingers on but in the words of my wise and wonderful mother, "one thing at a time, Steven." </p><p>I still have not learned such wisdom, but at least in this situation it's just one writing project at a time. Never mind that I'm also doing one full DND campaign and one mini campaign, a writing group, a board game night twice a week, and twice a month at the weekends, and trying to be the best friend I can be. Writing this I ponder what's wrong with me. My health stuff is so savage and yet I proceed to walk the cliff edge like some adrenaline junky, knowing if I lose my footing everything must go on hold for weeks, if not months. I don't seem to be able to fully stop and rest until one foot is over the edge and I'm about to fall, or actually falling.</p><p>But, oh well, these are the choices we make. Like the choice to delete the two hundred word rant/tangent I wrote that had nothing to do with writing, books or creative endeavours. Time to focus a bit.</p><p>I have attempted a couple of creative projects since my last update, aka editing my story Empiphany, submission of a novella, and selling hoodies with my doodles on.</p><p>Empiphany edits didn't go so well. The story needs to have the structure demolished and rebuilt from the foundations up. I look forward to doing this because there are a lot of exciting ideas and I will be able to do that story and characters justice. It's tough having written such stories over a decade ago and having to admit destruction is often part of the creation process. It will be a year or two yet, but I look forward to returning to Empiphany. </p><p>My novella was super close to being published, but I was told it needed a little more editing than the five that were chosen. Missing out is tough, but the publisher and one of the editors said they would happily go over it in the future and get the story edited. That was lovely and sweet.</p><p>The hoodie project was so cool. However, some of the product quality ended up being below the standard I wanted, which was so upsetting. I have put this project on hold for now but will resurrected it at some point. Thank you to those who supported by donating money and buying a hoodie.</p><p>So, yeah, lots of 'failure' but all part of the process. I never see them as failure, but experiences to grow from and improve. The only hard part is knowing I've let people down at times with quality of product. It weighs heavy on me. I hope to continue to improve so the quality is to a high standard. </p><p>And here I am in 2023, working on the current project. The Heart of Nature is being edited for hopefully its finally time. It is going super well. My editors have both been incredible. To have such talented writers/editors onboard with my projects is humbling. The editor I'm currently working with has got us to chapter four of thirty super quickly, and the flavour of the story has already become so much more tasty. I have always struggled with world building, but my editor is highlighting places I can add little things and I'm loving it. And to have chapter four end with my editor saying, "Really good chapter. Not much needed at all" was one of the best moments of my life. A slight hyperbole but not too far of the truth. I know I'm still not an amazing writer but I know my stories are fascinating and intriguing. They deserve to be told and I want to be worthy of them. To know my writing is at least improving is a relief. Sure there will be chapters ahead that are the opposite of chapter four and need ripping to pieces, but it's nice to know I'm becoming worthy. </p><p>The next few months of editing will be lots of fun, but also no doubt exhausting. But I feel the end is in sight. To have The Heart of Nature as a finished story and physical book is going to have me sobbing with joy. </p><p><br /></p>Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-43329255626725958352022-05-18T04:39:00.001-07:002022-05-24T04:22:54.214-07:002022 Part 2<p><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 12pt;">2022 has been a busy year so far. I am
still running the four nights a week social events like board games and dungeons
and dragons. I’ve tried to take a bit of a step back from the Monday and
Tuesday nights because I was doing too much. That said, in true me style I’ve
started a Saturday board games day at Waterstones Café once every 5/6 weeks and
most recently a writers group every Friday. Both are going well and fun to be a
part of.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman",serif; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;">In writing news, I need to get better at marketing
the Book of Prophecy. I have a few ideas to help for such, but need to put them into practice. The cover for The Heart of Nature has been
revealed which was a good step forward. I’m currently waiting to see how the edit is going, and hear back about the read through of a
standalone book. I have also submitted a novella for publication, so we’ll
see if that is accepted for such.</span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman",serif; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 107%;"><o:p></o:p></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj7N2XMQG8I1DhCM8cFSKtw6m7EF5-3R8wrkYnbAkduiRSY69uGWm_lEP5ulDSXqJ7vPAoCg22oGRnPN5yt-UOcv4cHMkDYE_a1NhQIDmM36cCs4ecSHfHfSfiiRK51bZuiF7zaWc8evQBMsw1rxXpLYb3uyqC2mmrxz-x7qk2i7YmVP7IOFugCazAMcg/s3296/HoN_cover_test-2.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2471" data-original-width="3296" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj7N2XMQG8I1DhCM8cFSKtw6m7EF5-3R8wrkYnbAkduiRSY69uGWm_lEP5ulDSXqJ7vPAoCg22oGRnPN5yt-UOcv4cHMkDYE_a1NhQIDmM36cCs4ecSHfHfSfiiRK51bZuiF7zaWc8evQBMsw1rxXpLYb3uyqC2mmrxz-x7qk2i7YmVP7IOFugCazAMcg/w319-h240/HoN_cover_test-2.jpg" width="319" /></a></div><p></p>Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-17630342518185635252022-01-11T05:24:00.003-08:002022-01-11T05:24:57.996-08:002022 Update<p><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 12pt;">It’s been nearly a year since my last post.
The year has had many ups and downs, as I’m sure it has for most. One highlight
was getting the board games night running again here in Gloucester. We now do
four nights a week. It has been incredible to see people come together and make
friends. The isolation of the lockdowns has been tough on many, and I think
people realise even more how important it is to have connections with good people.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman",serif; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 107%;">Book stuff is going well. The Book of
Prophecy has had the new cover done and is able to be purchased. I’m excited to
get promoting again. This year’s goal is to get The Heart of Nature released
and maybe one other book. I’ve also been recording my stories on youtube so
that option is there for people to listen to.<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman",serif; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 107%;">I’ve also got projects underway for artwork
and looking forward to seeing how those go. I will try to keep this blog
updated on what happens.<o:p></o:p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;">If you want to look at various ongoing projects this is my website- http://www.stevenjguscott.com/</span></p>Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-51226146578979436062021-02-26T11:43:00.000-08:002021-02-26T11:43:30.078-08:00Valentines Day Poem<div style="text-align: left;">I can't believe I haven't posted anything since October.</div><div style="text-align: left;">I've been writing bits of poetry, editing various projects, and doing some map making for Dungeons and Dragons. I'm still having lots of fun with my projects and making progress a little bit at a time.</div><div style="text-align: left;">Here's a random poem I wrote for Valentines Day:</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Love is the peak of our species progress,</div><div style="text-align: center;">Yet, we pollute what's pure with toxic selfishness.</div><div style="text-align: center;">More often than not it's not intentional,</div><div style="text-align: center;">Something in our DNA just makes us irrational.</div><div style="text-align: center;">The power to purify our very nature,</div><div style="text-align: center;">Takes more than a clichéd superficial gesture.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Each day is the way we fight for bliss,</div><div style="text-align: center;">Kind words, a smile, a gentle kiss.</div>Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-20846606212590996492020-10-20T06:38:00.000-07:002020-10-20T06:38:06.224-07:00Joy In The Success Of Others<p>One of my best friends, Sammy HK Smith, has had their book picked up and is coming out next year!! The cover reveal for, Anna, was last week and it looks so good!!! </p><p>Click the link to see more :)</p><p><a href="https://rebellionpublishing.com/cover-reveal-and-excerpt-anna-by-sammy-h-k-smith/?fbclid=IwAR3MplZ65qaxp4Wv1GWoPnKPSvc46hwogp5kzt1IuCVIMS4AIStVeimHN6w">https://rebellionpublishing.com/cover-reveal-and-excerpt-anna-by-sammy-h-k-smith/?fbclid=IwAR3MplZ65qaxp4Wv1GWoPnKPSvc46hwogp5kzt1IuCVIMS4AIStVeimHN6w</a></p>Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-73369616171461422562020-07-21T04:59:00.000-07:002020-07-21T04:59:28.929-07:00DREAMS<br />
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Still one of my favourite little writing pieces.</div>
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Freedom: “What are you doing?” </div>
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Vicarious: “Dreaming?”</div>
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Freedom: “Well stop! You know that’s wrong!”</div>
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Vicarious: “I know I’ve been told it’s wrong. I don’t know
that it is.”</div>
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F: “But Father and Mother say your dreams are wrong. That
you shouldn’t see what you see in your dreams.”</div>
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V: “Mother and Father are scared of what they do not
understand. What I see gives me experience. It teaches me infinity. I learn and
live through others because of my dreams.”</div>
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F: “Don’t you worry what they would all think if they knew
you could see them in your dreams?”</div>
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V: “Don’t be so narrow-minded. This is a gift given to me. I
shouldn’t deny it because of some notion of privacy. Besides, they don’t know I
can see them. It’s not like I can hurt them. All I do is watch.”</div>
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F: “Yes. All you do is watch. What about your life? There
are chores to be done, people to meet, friends to be made, dreams to be lived.”</div>
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V: “Those dreams aren’t real to me. What I dream is real.
When I dream, I dream of billions of chores, billions of people meeting,
billions of friends being made, and billions of dreams being lived. Nothing can
compare to that. No <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">one</i> dream
outweighs the dreams of billions.”</div>
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F: “You’re wrong, you know?”</div>
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V: “Oh really? Enlighten me, oh experienced one.”</div>
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F: “My dreams... My dreams, are more important than a
billion-billion other dreams.”</div>
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V: “And why is that?”</div>
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F: “Because they are <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">my</i>
dreams. I shape them with each choice and act I make. I do not know how they
will be fulfilled, but I try, and I struggle, and I bleed for them. I do not do
it to simply learn, or for others to simply watch. I do it for you, for Father
and Mother, for those I love.”</div>
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V: “But that is so limited. When I close my eyes and dream,
I look though their eyes; through the eyes they put on their streets; and the
ones in their markets; and those on their flying machines; and some in
unimaginable places in the spaces between where they all live. I see it all.
And by seeing, I am everything.”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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F: “You’re frightening me.”</div>
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V: “Frightening you? You should marvel at my dreams. You
should beg to hear them and learn through me of what is out there in what we
call the unknown. I have seen horrors and joys, and pleasures and pains, all of
which you and your dreams could never fathom or conjure.”</div>
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F: “And what good does it do you?”</div>
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V: “It makes me a god of knowledge and wisdom.”</div>
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F: “It makes you nothing. You stare at a mirror and you have
no reflection. It is all to feed your wish to be important.”</div>
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V: “I am important! Do you not wish to be important?”</div>
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F: “Not like you do. I want to be smiled at and hugged to
prove to me that I am important, and most of all I want to look in the mirror
and see my reflection. I want to see myself smile with the knowledge I live my
dreams. Without that evidence how can you know of your own importance?”</div>
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V: “I know. You refuse to understand. You can’t see what I
see. You’ll never understand.”</div>
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F: “I know I cannot see what you see, but you could come and
see what I see. Then you would understand me. All you have to do is try.”</div>
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V: “Why would I want to waste time and effort on that when I
can watch <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">all</i> people try. I can watch
them fail and I can watch them succeed. All from the comfort of my dreams.”</div>
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F: “I don’t think it will be enough for you.”</div>
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V: “What do you mean?”</div>
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F: “Eventually you will get bored and you will want to try.
But you won’t try to see through your own eyes and live your own dreams, for
you will have none. You will try to live theirs. They will not want you trying
to live their dreams. When you finally show yourself they will be able see
you’ve been watching, and they will hate you. They will not give you their
dreams. They will hate you for not earning the right. It is their right to give
their dreams freely.”</div>
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V: “...hmm...maybe so. But I will know all. I will know what
to say and what to do so they do not suspect who I am. They will not see me,
for they will only see their own reflection.”</div>
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F: “You underestimate them. They will know. And when they do
they will take back their dreams and you will have none. And then you will be
nothing because you have no dreams of your own.”</div>
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V: “I will dream again. It is of no consequence.”</div>
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F: “You won’t dream again. You can never go back after that.
Not once they’ve seen you and know you’ve been in their dreams. They will know how
to shut you out. It will be over for you and you’ll be lost forever.”</div>
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Vicarious: “You are jealous and trying to spoil my gift.
Leave me alone to my dreams.”</div>
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Freedom: “Don’t you mean <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">their</i>
dreams.”</div>
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Vicarious: “Yes, <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">their</i>
dreams, but they are <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">my </i>dreams too,
don’t forget that.”</div>
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Freedom: “I’m sorry you’ve chosen this way. I truly hope you
learn. Maybe if you put things right they will forgive you. But I think not. I
do not think we will see each other again. Well, maybe in our dreams. Goodbye,
Big Brother.”</div>
<br />Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-24972329544941563892020-06-27T12:25:00.001-07:002020-06-27T12:25:12.556-07:00From My Heart<br />
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Something I wrote on Facebook a few weeks ago. This year has been so intense I felt I had to let out some feelings and thoughts. </div>
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In these times of ever increasing extremes it's so hard to
know what to write, or say, and most importantly, do.</div>
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The world and its events are so massive. The number of
different beliefs so vast. Hate and Love on a global scale are growing stronger
and stronger as they feast upon the need to fight harder and harder to beat the
other.</div>
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What can I do in such a world? My tiny garden of influence,
beliefs and perspectives is comparable to nothing. How do I know what way is
best to plough, sow, water, weed, harvest, consume and share?</div>
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Honestly, I don't have an answer.</div>
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I am void of knowing what I can do. So much love that rages
inside. Rages and burns for those fighting for the same want of love. Its so
intense and purifying that it almost consumes me. Such grief for the suffering
of fellow beings. I know I must hold on. And so I go on. Balancing, processing,
trying, loving, caring in small ways, until I can do more. Deep down
controlling emotions that feel like they could rip apart the whole universe,
and if not that, then certainly my small garden. </div>
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I want to hold those in grief and suffering to show them
they are loved. That their pain is noticed. That each person is significant and
matters more than they could ever know. That so many tears are spilled for
them. That so many small gardens are watered in this way by millions of people
because of love. That despite the hate, selfishness, poverty, injustice,
sickness, loneliness and fear, there are those who would take it all away if
they could. People who are doing what they can to make a change. Those trying
to keep hope and love alive through word and action.</div>
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I want to do more. I want to be by your side when kneeling
and fighting for love. But if all I can do is sign petitions, vote with love
for reform, raise my voice when needed, tell people how much I love them, be
there for them, share what little I can, and love with all my heart, then
hopefully it will be enough, even though I want to do so much more. </div>
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You may never know it. But I love you.</div>
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Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-67997861529762644372020-01-05T04:46:00.001-08:002022-06-04T08:31:15.860-07:00The End of Decimation<br />
The word Decimation originally refers to the beating to death of one person in a group of ten by the other nine. It was used by the Romans as a form of punishment for soldiers. To have to kill one of your brothers, who you’ve been training with and fighting beside would have been devastating. The Romans knew how to use cruelty as a form of control. <br /><br />Why do I make reference to this? Well, I’ve been writing stories for a decade. This made me think of decimation simply because it relates to ten. Then I realised the decade has often felt like the same brutality as the psychological aspect of decimation. I refer to my writing journey, but overall it has been a remarkably intense ten years. <br /><br />This last year could have been the most difficult, and therefore it could have been the one to be beaten and killed by the other nine (give up on writing). Granted, most of the struggles relating to writing have been self inflicted, but these emotions are instinctive and natural. It has been excruciatingly difficult not to let crippling disappointments, rejections, waiting and inadequacies break me. This year could, and probably should have been the most difficult. <br /><br />The lack of writing and ability to market could have broken me so easily. Ultimately, the situation I am in has been my own choice. I chose to focus on Dungeons and Dragons for half the year, and focus on time with my friends and family. It took nine years, but I learned it’s better to wait than to rush. And that’s just the tip of the iceberg of what I’ve learned this decade. <br /><br />This writing journey has really forced me to overcome so many inner demons. Just like the body needs controlled and measured resistance to become stronger, so does the mind and heart (a generalisation- obviously specific situations differ). Over time (a life time) there can be strategies and techniques to process and accept thoughts and emotions related to disappointments, rejections, waiting and inadequacy. Because of this writing journey I have had to face so many personal insecurities. Often I was broken by them, but I kept rebuilding my mental and emotional pathways. Over time they became stronger. I could either let them beat me or I could learn to overcome them. And now the struggles barely even register. This has made this last year a joy, when it could have been otherwise. I do get a tiny bit impatient every so often, especially because I’m currently in a cocoon stage with my stories. But, whether it takes a year, or ten, or fifty, or never happens, I am at peace with it now. I cannot do anything more than I already am. Whatever the future holds, I’m doing my best with my specific circumstances. <br /><br />The joyous and beautiful truth is that I’ve found serenity and peace. And it’s all thanks to the connected fun and challenging experiences that come from writing stories and wanting them to be published. My writing has improved over the years, but most importantly I am a far happier and tranquil human being. I am super thankful for those who have guided me on this journey. So many people have been a part of helping me grow and learn as a writer and as a person. I am thankful for all the encouragement support and help. Here’s to the next year and decade! <br /><br />Goals: <br />My main goal for the year is to finish book three of the Chronicles of Elementary. There are other small goals I’ll work on, but I’m happy keeping my head down and not rushing. One day I hope to have the books out in the world again for people to read, but if not, it’s okay. I have learned not to rush or worry about things in the future. Right now is what matters most. Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-82311358074624237342019-09-18T05:30:00.000-07:002019-09-18T05:30:59.774-07:00How To Kick Life In The Vagiballs (2011) – update = 29/08/2019The Journey<br />
Find the road that makes me happiest, according to the circumstances that surround me at any one time. This road is the road that matters most. My happiness will help others to feel happy when around me. However, sacrificing my own happiness for other does not work. Self care and rest must come first.<br />On the flip side, other people can impact my happiness, which is good, but the core must be my own.<br />
I must stay on my own road of happiness at all costs. Always invite others to join me, but people come and go. The most important will always be on my road whether close or far.<br />
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Family <br />
Be there for them, because they have always been there for me. Family is a spectrum of ideas, so anyone can be family, but first it is blood ties. If ever they fail me I am lucky to have so many friends that our family to me. One day I may have a family of my own and will have to have the integrity and commitment to never fail them.<br />
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Perspective<br />
View life through the eyes of others. People are individuals and the way they look at life may be different but it does not make them wrong. Having an open mind will allow me to relate to people, and as a consequence be a better friend to all who I meet no matter from what background of life.<br />
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The Things That Actually Matter <br />
Let go of things that don't matter so I can hold onto that which does.<br />
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Plans Within Plans Within Plans<br />
Always have a plan b, c and z. Focus on plan A but be prepared to change. Life is a constant variable. <br />
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The Three: Mind, body and Spirit/Soul<br />
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Mind<br />
The mind needs stimulation. Both fun and educational. Some stimulations are perceived as lower and some as higher. Almost all have benefits and I must choose to learn and observe what the benefits are. However, some can be destructive and I must stay clear of these. Don’t overthink!!<br />
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Body<br />
Being healthy helps me to be happy but health is different from shape. I want to be strong so I can accomplish and have more energy but this will come by being healthy. Being healthy is exercising in a balanced way, sleeping effectively and eating well. I have learned this is more complex. With a invisible illness it is so very hard to keep physical health balance. Being able to be strict and resting so much as I need to is important but very hard. <br />
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Spirit/Soul<br />
I must stick to my own beliefs and live them to the best of my abilities. This involves accounting for my strengths and weaknesses and includes a massive number of external influences at any given time.<br />
I must learn what I believe and live it. I must also understand everyone has different beliefs and these are as important to those people as mine are to me. By practicing my own belief system I build integrity, self understanding and I know my place in the universe. I learn that I am special and so is everyone. I learn the value of life. Search for spiritual wellbeing through adopting a spectrum of religious and philosophical perspectives. Trust my soul to know what feels good for me to adopt. <br />
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Being Honest With My Emotions.<br />Emotions make me human. The intensity and experience is both beautiful and destructive. Learning how to only allow the beautiful ones to flower will bring peace and serenity. <br />
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Learn To Love <br />The time will come to love. I should not fear it, or project past negativities on potential future experiences. I deserve to be loved and someone deserves to be loved by me. This love will not be as a friend, or as family, but as something that in a way combines both, and is unique in its definition. It is the kind of love when two parts become one whole. <br />I must prepare for that moment to be the best I can. This way I can support them, learn from them, teach them and vise versa. We will be able to grow in beauty and happiness. This in turn will allow us to lift each other when down and lean on each other, holding hands through the good and the bad. I must understand it will not be easy, as I will not always be my best self, but I will try, and all that is pure will see me through. I must understand every part of who they are and love them for it. <br />
I need to open up and let people in so the chances of finding love will be increased.<br />
I must also love myself for who I am but be willing to change and grow. <br />
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Wants And Needs<br />
Maintain the needs of life. Work hard to have more so the pleasures and wants such as travelling and helping people can be accomplished. <br />
Money gives freedom and can be used to influence the world around me in a positive manner. It will increase my circle of influence. But maintaining the needs is the foundation. Building prematurely upon that foundation may destroy the foundation. <br />With the invisible illness it is harder to get things and influence. Learn to accept that even a simple smile to lift someone’s day is a gift that can be given. Keeping finances balanced is so important, but being happy with ones circumstance and not always desiring more and more is fundamental to happiness. <br />
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Create and Express<br />
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Expression<br />
Thoughts, feelings, beliefs should be expressed where possible. They are the sum of all the parts that combine together to form who I am. I should love all of who I am and not be afraid to show it. All this should be done with respect.<br />
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Creation<br />
There is nothing like creating something and looking at that creation and feeling the joys of accomplishment. Creation should always be encouraged.<br />
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Past, Present And Future<br />
The past cannot be changed. Learn from it. This means I can have the best experience in the present/now and shape an amazing future full of wonders.<br />
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Have fun! Be silly! Life is an adventure that is full of so many possibilities. Learn when to be serious but at all other times relax! dance! sing! smile! and laugh!<br /><br /> Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-64597659541543515872019-09-02T05:50:00.001-07:002019-09-02T05:50:59.399-07:00Crisis Point 29-11-13 Poem<br />
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Crisis Point 29-11-13</div>
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The four sides of the
human coin was flipped.</div>
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And landed to make me
a gentle man.</div>
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A sensitive child
through play distracted,</div>
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In youth an odyssey
to find my plan.</div>
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My foundation soft as
tears of a dove.</div>
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Shunning misguided ideals
of the man,</div>
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<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Falling on my nature of just one glove.</div>
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A crisis point to
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From sprint to
marathon I had to learn.</div>
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Defending my heart
with walls of my mind.</div>
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Yet, Venus to Mars
caused rages to burn,</div>
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Fanned by routine and
forced to look inside.</div>
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Saved by oar, the
fight, a gift, and my clan,</div>
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Complete with all
sides, now a simple man.</div>
<br />Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-80962375240228437372019-01-15T08:41:00.004-08:002019-01-15T08:41:53.490-08:002019With it now being 2019 I thought I better at least write an update.<div>
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2018 has been a pretty busy year for writing and book related fun. I have a cover for The Heart of Nature and it is beautiful. I'm sure in the next few months I'll be ready to show the world. I am currently waiting on the redo of The Book of Prophecy's cover and then will show both.</div>
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In December I submitted a short story to a Anthology, Lost Gods by Grimboldbooks.com. The story is a Greek mythology story I wrote a few years back and I spent a lot of time improving it. I'm currently waiting to see if it was good enough to get into the anthology.</div>
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I am still doing lots of Dungeons and Dragons and gathering so many wonderful and entertaining stories from those adventures. We're about two thirds of the way through the campaign now and it will likely wrap up in the summer. </div>
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I'm also waiting on feedback on the Heart of Nature from the publishers and hoping it doesn't need too much editing etc.</div>
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In 2018 I also went to Fantasy Writers Con ( In Chester) for the first time since Nottingham 2015 and it was good to be there. I spent most of the time on the stall helping sell books and then resting to make sure the health stuff didn't get too bad. It was a fun weekend for sure and gave me a lot of motivation to keep writing and seeing what the future holds for my books.</div>
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2019 is a complete unknown. I'm hoping it will be the year I realise the Heart of Nature but only time will tell. I'll do my best to update on anything that happens and any thoughts about this journey, but as always I'm rubbish at doing so these days.</div>
Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-83334454916225926832018-05-08T13:26:00.001-07:002018-05-08T13:26:28.186-07:00POEM: Contradictions of Each Path 31-1-14<br />
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Here is another poem, that has been long overdue- I am so bad at keeping this blog updated these days. There isn't much new, but as always things are moving forward. One day I'll be able to show you some cool stuff that is being worked on, but who knows when. For now I'll keep posting random poems from a few years back.</div>
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Contradictions of
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How do I make even
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When if one taken,
the second goes back.</div>
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The path of my
childhood long since moored,</div>
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And joys and goals a
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Work’s path kills
slow, I can’t win, only lose.</div>
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Even educations
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Another path- to
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Yet, my curse of fear
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Too many times I’ve
failed the fight with faith.</div>
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What about the paths
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Four years they have
haunted me like a wraith.</div>
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Using strengths to be
patient as the dead.</div>
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And all for what? A
tortoise pace, still blind.</div>
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Where is the golden
path I wish to find?!</div>
<br />Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-26027809419382277902018-01-06T11:55:00.001-08:002018-01-06T11:56:21.035-08:00Poem: Chrysalis 2/4/13<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> Chrysalis 2/4/13<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">This
change is excruciating, blinding.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">And
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Yet,
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Sight
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">For
so long a chance to find light wasted.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">But
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Able
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">The
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">I
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">And
though a thousand shocks took my substance.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Its
internal mutation gave me more.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">The
key: observe, adapt, repeat- and grow. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-84257977517208283762017-12-08T12:26:00.001-08:002017-12-08T12:35:20.009-08:00Turning 30 years old and PoetryI had my thirtieth birthday recently. It has been celebrated wonderfully and I was treated and spoiled by friends and family. I was deeply touched by how loving everyone was and my thirtieth birthday has been a very special time.<br />
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In writing news, I have been very good and actually have lots of words put together for a future story. Granted, its just lots of notes from my dungeons and dragons campaign, but its something. My friends have been incredible players and together they have made some wonderful characters, and epic moments as we play. I can't wait to write it up one day as stories relating to the main novel.<br />
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The bad news is I have been terrible at getting my books published before the year is over. The industry is so hard to crack, and with sales only breaking even, it's difficult to keep the momentum going when publishing new books. The company have wisely slowed down the pace of publishing a little, because too much investment and not enough sales is a dangerous habit for a company to get into. Grimbold Publishing must survive, as it's amazing company. In time I will get my stories ready to be published, but until then things have ground to a halt.<br />
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Some good news is (I think), I have some poetry to share. I wrote a number of poems when I used to work nightshift and always hoped I'd be happy, confident and brave enough to share them by the time I'm thirty. Well, I have achieved those goals and happy to share them with you. I'll post one every few weeks/month. I hope you like them.<br />
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The drive goes on, and on, despite
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While mother earth gestates her
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Weathering and weakening, then we
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Like lightening, my energy is
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All of it used to control this
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She is unaffected, unstoppable.<span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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I am rust, dents and leaking
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How to survive? This is impossible!<span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Harmonise, so we two will win this
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Achieve wants, and dreams, together
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If you condescend for us, show us
grace.<span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Give us a break, then repairs can
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Or in a trillion tears we will
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If no break given to stop this
breakdown. <span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-19239589128360960782017-10-12T11:55:00.004-07:002017-10-12T11:55:57.741-07:00Months Vanish In A Blink<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
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a total stuck record, but as ever, things are taking longer than expected. Luckily, I seem to have shed impatience and time rolls forward without me really being aware.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">In other
news, I now have a colouring book of my art published! If you want to take a look go to www.stevenjguscott.com<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;">The last update for this post is about my new addiction. I have started my own Dungeons and Dragons campaign. This has been an amazing lesson in world building and paying attention to small details/mechanics of a society. As ever I don't do things by half and have created the world and the four kingdoms in it from scratch, plus Dming it for ten friends. It has become a vast and insane project, but the creative side to it is glorious. I'm having soooooo much fun!!! Although, I have to ration my </span>obsession<span style="font-size: 12pt;"> as ever to make sure I rest and don't do too much.</span></span></div>
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Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-30476180137395732392017-07-16T10:27:00.000-07:002017-07-16T12:33:48.549-07:00Unseen Potential<b>Unseen Potential</b><br />
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Often creative projects like stories, music, art etc spend a lot time as potential energy. It begins as an internal idea and ends in the external world with form of some type. The start and end are usually obvious- I have an idea for a story, and I want it to be a book to share with the world. However, sometimes we don’t see the potential of our work. This has happened to me.<br />
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Writing has been my main creative focus, but over the years I have also enjoyed drawing and doing what I call my doodles. They have improved with practice, but to me they were for fun and simply another creative outlet. In the last year or two people have complemented them and suggested it would be fun to colour them in.<br />
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This has been suggested again by a number of close friends. This has helped me see there is a lot of potential for fun in my drawings, especially when adult colouring books are so popular right now. I spoke to my publisher, Kristell-Ink, and they have agreed to publish a colouring book. This was decided a month or so ago. Since then I have been working hard to tidy up all my drawings so the quality is as good as it can be. All the pieces are done and I’m looking forward to sharing this creative project with everyone. <br />
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<b>Other Projects</b><br />
The Book of Prophecy is getting some awesome art added and will be re-released over the coming month or two.<br />
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The sequel, The Heart of Nature, hasn’t moved forward yet, but I’m content waiting.<br />
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Over the years I have had to take lots of rest time because of my health stuff. When doing this I listen to a lot of Dungeons and Dragons podcasts/games. I have finally decided to create my own campaign and this is based around a trilogy of books I will write, probably 10-20 years from now. This has already been a lot of fun. Creating the world and the detail needed has been a great learning curve and I can’t wait to see the potential of this story/adventure come together over the coming years.</div>
Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-32887045604151940832017-04-24T02:55:00.001-07:002017-04-24T02:55:39.833-07:00Politics- My Thoughts and Feelings <div>
Not related to my books, but something I wanted to put into the universe.</div>
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Introduction<br /><br />We live in a mostly physical reality, where such related things (wealth, physical strength etc) are prioritised and praised. However, there is clearly more to this life than just the physical. Yet, because it dominates our senses it is difficult to tune into the spiritual* and connected compassionate ideologies.<br /><br />That said, it is clear that the physical and spiritual are linked i.e. it is difficult to focus on the spiritual and compassionate without our basic physical needs being met. Furthermore, physical emotions of happiness, joy and love are linked to the spiritual and very much the bridge between the two parts of what is actually a whole.<br /><br />Main Body<br /><br />The truth (I often avoid that word these days due to ambiguity but it is right to use it here) is that we in the west are often fortunate to have our basic needs met but are not content. We then get lost in ambitions of wanting more and more and prioritise gain for the self (I fall into this trap often). We lose sight of the spiritual and compassionate, and become selfish. We need to learn to be at peace with our circumstance- not easy in the slightest, but possible. We can still aim for achievements, but perhaps prioritise them better, or think about WHY we are trying to do something, and what happiness it actually gives us.<br /><br />I rarely comment on politics because I very much have my own personal views and will vote how I see fit. I do not believe the continual arguments and debates that occur are very beneficial to my goals in life. I am an advocate of choice and have a huge respect for our freedoms to choose- it is very much the core of my own belief system. Often I sit back because I think, ‘who am I to try and influence anyone’s choice.’ Recently I have struggled to know the right thing to do on such subjects as governance and government. I don’t know whether to share my opinions or stay quiet. There is so much turmoil and upheaval and fear about the future that I finally feel I should at the least share some thoughts and feelings. I have always acted the best I can to mirror my beliefs, but often words have to be used as actions are often missed. This is why I have written this. <br /><br />The definition of governance and government is very important when trying to explain my position on politics. My personal view is that you can measure good governance by how they/we prioritise the poor, weak, innocent, and ill. Your definition may vary, but what goal is more important than the happiness and safety of an individual who is in need of help? As a country we have lost sight of what is important. The leniency towards crimes that take away choice, such as abuse, theft, rape and murder is shocking and breaks my heart each day. Obviously rehabilitation and second chances are important, but never at the cost of the victim. Those in power and who govern have forgotten this. <br /><br />It is also clear from cut backs to health, and especially mental health and addiction that those in power are not for the people. They do not care for people. Thousands have died from neglect, and many have committed suicide because they have been lost hope- I was nearly one of those people. It took years to finally be taken seriously and get the help I needed. <br /><br />I don’t know how to actively change such things, but I know it starts with me and how I live my life. It continues with me speaking up and having courage not to be indifferent- the whole evil wins when good people do nothing quote. When I vote I will do so with all the above things as my motivations. I ask humbly and with tears in my eyes that you perhaps decide to do the same. <br /><br />Conclusion<br /><br />You may think what I have said is idealistic and naïve but it’s because of that thought pattern that such things don’t come about. If we have hope, if we do believe, if we focus on those who truly have our best intentions at heart, then a happy, healthy, loving society can be achieved in time. It starts with us and what choices we make. If we already are trying our hardest to bring about happiness and love then don’t give up. Keep fighting for this in any little way you can until your last breath. Look out for those who need to be loved. Prioritise the spiritual and compassionate over the physical. But most importantly learn to love yourself and who you are. If you do this you will be happier and able to love others even more.<br /><br /><br />*My own personal understanding- serenity of the soul, calm consciousness, at peace with ones place in the universe and love for all humanity. Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-25549119378373173982017-03-06T03:43:00.000-08:002017-03-06T03:43:18.857-08:00March 2017 Already!Well, there goes my waaay overly optimistic goal of April for The Heart of Nature. Can’t believe we are in March! I do love how my perception of time and how long it takes to do things can still be so distorted even after all these years. I really shouldn’t make such goals as no matter how ‘realistic’ I think I’m being I’m always so far off. The phrase ‘it will get done when it gets done’ has wisdom in it, but I’ve never been that wise, so my new time related goal is to have The Heart of Nature published by the end of the year. <br /><br />The wait is good though as timing is a very important thing. This has become clear many times over the years and once again I see it in this situation. I’ve been doing some writing/editing that I see now was important to get done before the ball gets rolling on The Heart of Nature. I can’t say what it is right now, but it’s vital in making my work the best it can be for readers. <br /><br />I’ll keep posting when I have any news or discussion points I want to write about. In the mean time if you are reading this and have read one of my stories please do leave a review on Amazon as each review is very helpful. All links can be found on my website <a href="http://www.stevenjguscott.com/">www.stevenjguscott.com</a> Thanks in advance if you do leave a review.Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-43372616001282503372016-12-31T06:13:00.000-08:002016-12-31T06:13:50.959-08:00Snail Pace<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
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another year ends I wanted to write a last blog post for 2016. In a way it’s an
apology. Recently, I’ve been asked by a couple of people when the sequel to the
Book of Prophecy will be out and I have to confess I don’t know. For this I’m
sorry. I’m hoping for the end of spring, but there is no indication that this
could be the case, it might be much later.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">The
Heart of Nature had been scheduled for the latter half of this year, but I’ve
not been able to meet that goal. This has mainly been to misjudging the
time it would take to get ready. With my health struggles I have to be very
careful with how much I do in my life. Anything that takes effort/energy has to
be careful regulated or I get very ill. This means with writing I have to only
do small bits when I can. Once upon a time I could do a couple of hours a day
of slow editing or reading, but now that is often much less. The work gets
done, but it just takes a long time.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;"> As mentioned in the previous post, I
have been working on another novel, as I really wanted to get that re-written
by the end of the year. I’m glad I achieved this a few weeks ago, but perhaps I
should have been working on The Heart of Nature. I am working on it now, well,
reading The Book of Prophecy again, in prep for a read through of my latest
edit of The Heart of Nature. I’m confident that in time the story will get
published, and it will be worth the wait, but once again, I’m sorry that it
takes so long. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;"> 2017 is a totally unknown entity at
this point, with very little scheduled for book related things like events etc.
The main goal will be the publication of The Heart of Nature and I’m excited
for when I do finally have it ready for people to read. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-85125693970930296612016-10-10T03:32:00.002-07:002017-03-06T03:46:04.913-08:00I Have Become Death, Destroyer of Words<br />As a writer, the general aim of the game tends to be to write words- ‘gasp’ what a revelation. And that’s always how it’s been over the years. However, I have become the antithesis of such a mind-blowing concept. I have spent the last few months killing words.<br /><br />This all came about when I submitted the sequel to The Book of Prophecy to the publishers and it didn’t go so well. The biggest issue was the waffle and too much time spent inside the mind of characters. It was time to correct this mistake. So I put on my psychopathic clown-face (check me being relevant to the news) and went on a word killing spree.<br /><br /> I slaughtered 30,000 words from the 155,000 and was pretty shocked at how that can occur. I guess I put it down to how I like to be very descriptive of thoughts and emotions. Yet, this just slows down the story and is really tedious and over the top. Lesson learned (I hope). When that killing spree was over I decided to look at some older work and have dropped 14,000 from a 94,000 piece.<br /><br />It’s tough having the blood of so many innocent words on my hands and it feels counterproductive on the surface, but it's actually so important. The pace and style of a story is paramount and I think I’m finally learning the skills to keep content streamlined by cutting out the ‘ghafla.’ *Dune reference alert*<br /><br />As always, I guess only time will tell if my massacring is of value. <br /><br /><div>
In other news, I was at Gloucester Comic-Con this weekend selling books for <a href="http://www.grimboldbooks.com/">http://www.grimboldbooks.com/</a> and it was a very enjoyable experience. It was lovely to chat to so many people who were enjoying the Con. To see such happiness and joy in a place where people can be themselves was wonderful. A massive thank you to all those who came and said hello and who purchased books.</div>
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<br />The next Con will be Bristol Writers Con on the 29th. Until then, it will be killing more words, mwhahahahaaaaaaa!<br /><br />(Sobs inside at having to slay them all, but their sacrifice will not be forgotten)</div>
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Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-45661013108767210972016-09-03T03:11:00.002-07:002017-03-06T03:46:51.263-08:00When Book Promotion Goes WrongBack in late July I set up a free promo for The Book of Prophecy. I chose three websites that were renowned for high downloads (see list below). I contacted the publishers and the KDP feature on Amazon was set up and promo scheduled for the 1st-5th of Sept.<br /><br />The weeks went by in controlled excitement for finally being able to access a wider audience. Two days before the promo I checked Amazon and my book had been removed from KDP and therefore unable to be put as free. After various emails that crossed over into the day before the promo, we were told it was removed because we broke the terms and conditions last time we used it. Now I don’t think we’ve used KDP for BoP as in the past we’ve used the price-match feature i.e putting it free elsewhere and Amazon price-match. Even then, that was like a year ago. <br /><br />Anyway, I proceeded to email the websites to tell them the bad news. They were brilliant and switched the promo to their 99c/p promo or gave a full refund. I cannot praise them enough for their understanding and support.<br /><br />So the promo has not been a total waste, as we’ve made some sales, which I'm very thankful for, but at this stage in the game, volume of downloads is the key. This is pretty high if the work is free on such promo sites as I was using. It’s brutal that even after all the effort to create a book it has to be free to get exposure, but that’s the reality. I’m trying hard to not get upset and frustrated, but it’s not easy.<br /><br />I will do my best to try and branch out the marketing of this promo but the biggest problem is I’m marketing to the same people via facebook and these are friends and family. They’ve had to put up with promotion etc for years and been beyond supportive. These promo sites were going to hit new audiences, but also get a good volume of downloads, and that was exciting.<br /><br />As always, I’ll bounce back, but needed to vent a little about this situation and wanted to add this experience to the annals. There’s still exciting news in the pipeline for other works, and I have two events in October and because of the people I will be with it will be a lot of fun. I'll always take the bad with the good, because there is so much good too :)<br /><br />Promo Sites:<br /><br />Freebooksy<br />Manybooks.net<br />BooksbutterflySteven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-19123716505640331562016-08-10T09:04:00.004-07:002017-03-06T03:47:04.228-08:00Event CancellationThe Steampunk Ball at Cogsbar in Birmingham, which was mentioned in previous posts, was meant to take place this coming weekend. Unfortunately it has been cancelled.<br />
The other events in Oct are still going ahead.<br />
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<br />Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-23601690563000237822016-07-13T10:06:00.001-07:002017-03-06T03:47:35.961-08:00Interview With Sheffield Uni Gothic Society, Post Re-imagining Event A few months ago I went to Sheffield Uni for a Gothic-Lit event to launch The Diary of V. Frankenstein and give a presentation on it. I was interviewed via skype recently by one of the organisers. We got to have a more in depth discussion about the story and its themes. The interview has been transcribed and put on the Sheffield Gothic Blog so feel free to have a look. <br /><br />Just forgive the couple of question I ramble on and don't actually answer. Nerves got the best of me.<br /><br /><a href="http://sheffieldgothicreadinggroup.blogspot.co.uk/2016/07/steven-guscott-in-ideal-world-it.html">http://sheffieldgothicreadinggroup.blogspot.co.uk/2016/07/steven-guscott-in-ideal-world-it.html</a>Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-67328231082133377732016-07-13T07:23:00.003-07:002016-07-13T07:23:43.577-07:00A Quick General UpdateThis latter half of 2016 is going to be busy. As mentioned in a couple of posts ago, there are a number of events coming up.<br />
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This post is simply a quick bullet point run down of what writing things I'm working on the moment.<br />
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-The main project at the moment is The Heart of Nature. This is the second book in The Chronicles of Elementary and my own editing is going well. I have about 100 of 485 pages left to work through and then it will be sent to the publisher to see what they think.<br />
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-After the lessons of the one star for the Diary of V. Frankenstein I have moved on and focusing on the positive things ahead. I've had a number of really nice things said about DoVF said since, so that's helped restore a little bit of faith in the story.<br />
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-I've been working on some cosplay for two conventions in October and the copsplay is a character from DoVF. Its been a lot of fun so far and I can't wait to finish. Although, I must remind people to spray paint in a well ventilated area ;) lol<br />
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-There is another bit of cool DoVF news, but I don't know if I'm allowed to share it yet so will wait just now.<br />
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-The rest of my time is spent making sure I'm organised for events that I have going on. I have a small little book signing on this weekend (16th of July) in Gloucester and that's looking to be fun<br />
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And that's about it really at the moment for book news. I'm working as hard as my health will let me and will continue to update and keep a record as and when things happen.Steven J. Guscotthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12148202519724866936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9077043406164684485.post-78973895761173367132016-06-15T09:57:00.001-07:002017-03-06T03:49:12.152-08:001 Star Review: My Mistakes, Honesty, Candour, Naivety, Innocence and Ignorance.Getting a harsh, but obviously trolling review is easy for me to move passed. Getting a harsh, but justified review- not so much.<br /><br />Long story short, my latest novella, The Diary of V. Frankenstein has had a review that rips it to shreds and says the story does the opposite of following feminist themes and is actually condescending, patronizing and anti-feminist (the review contains a lot of spoilers but it’s on goodreads if you want to look). The reviewer didn’t know there was a gender swapped version, and has agreed to read it, but at the end of the day she may still not like it. I totally accept this, but I’ve felt it important to write about this experience and how to move forward from the review.<br /><br />For a number of reasons, the harsh review hurts a lot and is a bitter pill to swallow. As mentioned in a previous post, I did swallow this pill 3-4 months ago, when I was told the story could be interpreted negatively. After re-writes, and the creation of the alternate gender swap version, I thought we had got it right; that hand in hand the two versions of the story were a fascinating duality on the themes and plot. In part this is what has happened, but mistakes have been made on the way. This is partly due to me and my weaknesses, but also due to not providing both versions equally- oh the irony! <br /><br />The best way to begin this discussion is to talk about how I write a story. I don’t often think when writing a story. I usually have a beginning, a middle, and an end, and some themes to play with, and then I just write. The story tends to evolve by itself. I don’t really think about the characters, a target audience, marketability, or how it will all be interpreted etc. In hindsight this is very naïve, innocent and ignorant of me. In my defence it is a much more organic process, but I see now it can lead to problems if I don’t think enough about who will read this story and the perspective they might take on it. <br /><br />The fact that The Diary of V. Frankenstein can be read as the opposite of what I tried to make it has happened for a number of reasons- mostly because of the above. The review is harsh and contains many spoilers, but the reality is that many people will agree with this negative review, yet at the same time many people won’t even think about the things she’s highlighted. And this is the difficulty of subjectivity and with right and wrong a lot of the time- it is us as individuals who define our reality/how we perceive something. Because of how subjective things like interpretation of stories can be, such a review wouldn’t usually create this level discussion from me, but as I’ve said, the review is totally valid and important for me to listen to.<div>
<br />Let’s go back in time for a minute. When it was brought to my attention by my editor and publisher of how certain aspects to the story can be seen as the opposite of what I was trying to do I struggled to accept it. However, that was my naïve perspective and my ignorance. For one who has a very high emotional level at times and who can be very empathic and compassionate, I seriously failed these wonderful aspects of my personality. I did not put enough weight on how readers could perceive the plot of the story.<br /><br />Fortunately, great things came from my naivety and we developed the alternative version I’ve discussed in previous posts: a version that is, ultimately what I should have written in the first place. But I am human, and therefore prone to mistakes and weaknesses. Another mistake I make is that I often think people will take the positive interpretation and not the negative- once again, I am so innocent and ignorant at times, which is no excuse. I need to do better. I need to apply empathy and understanding to my readers, especially with such important themes and subject matters that mean everything to me.<br /><br /> In hindsight I wish we had published the Victoria Frankenstein version as the primary version. We were so close in doing so, but an attitude of, ‘it will be okay, and once we’ve had sales and sold the hardbacks special editions of the female version, we can sort out the female paperbacks and ebooks.’ It was clearly not okay. Actually, the truth is they should have all been equal.<br /><br />The nature of time is that we can’t go back and can only move forward. The wonderful part of life is that we are humans and have the capacity to adapt, learn and grow. It can be painful and hard, but is so worth it. Out of negatives, positives can be created. For this specific situation, the positivity is that the two stories are going to be published together in one book. It is a wonderful combining of two fascinating versions of the same story, and both can be seen from multiple points of view, but with them together readers will know there are two halves to a whole. Hopefully, with the stories together it will be something fun to read, but I also hope it will be something that has layers and provokes thought on personal perception, and the importance of empathy and understanding of all perspectives. <br /></div>
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