Tuesday, 15 January 2019


With it now being 2019 I thought I better at least write an update.

2018 has been a pretty busy year for writing and book related fun. I have a cover for The Heart of Nature and it is beautiful. I'm sure in the next few months I'll be ready to show the world. I am currently waiting on the redo of The Book of Prophecy's cover and then will show both.

In December I submitted a short story to a Anthology, Lost Gods by Grimboldbooks.com. The story is a Greek mythology story I wrote a few years back and I spent a lot of time improving it. I'm currently waiting to see if it was good enough to get into the anthology.

I am still doing lots of Dungeons and Dragons and gathering so many wonderful and entertaining stories from those adventures. We're about two thirds of the way through the campaign now and it will likely wrap up in the summer. 

I'm also waiting on feedback on the Heart of Nature from the publishers and hoping it doesn't need too much editing etc.

In 2018 I also went to Fantasy Writers Con ( In Chester) for the first time since Nottingham 2015 and it was good to be there. I spent most of the time on the stall helping sell books and then resting to make sure the health stuff didn't get too bad. It was a fun weekend for sure and gave me a lot of motivation to keep writing and seeing what the future holds for my books.

2019 is a complete unknown. I'm hoping it will be the year I realise the Heart of Nature but only time will tell. I'll do my best to update on anything that happens and any thoughts about this journey, but as always I'm rubbish at doing so these days.

Tuesday, 8 May 2018

POEM: Contradictions of Each Path 31-1-14

Here is another poem, that has been long overdue- I am so bad at keeping this blog updated these days. There isn't much new, but as always things are moving forward. One day I'll be able to show you some cool stuff that is being worked on, but who knows when. For now I'll keep posting random poems from a few years back.

Contradictions of Each Path 31-1-14

How do I make even two steps forward?
When if one taken, the second goes back.
The path of my childhood long since moored,
And joys and goals a faint vision to track.
Work’s path kills slow, I can’t win, only lose.
Even educations effort is lost.
Another path- to serve, and spread good news?
Yet, my curse of fear adds to the high cost.
Too many times I’ve failed the fight with faith.
What about the paths and worlds in my head?
Four years they have haunted me like a wraith.
Using strengths to be patient as the dead.
And all for what? A tortoise pace, still blind.
Where is the golden path I wish to find?!

Saturday, 6 January 2018

Poem: Chrysalis 2/4/13

Here's another poem. 

 Chrysalis 2/4/13

This change is excruciating, blinding.
And all I want to see is a reason.
Yet, in darkness I find sight in feeling.
Sight that was eclipsed in winter’s season.
The coldness numbing at the genesis.
For so long a chance to find light wasted.
But spring came, growing in this chrysalis.
Able to feel light though blind and tainted.
The light itself a truth, an evidence.
I will never be what I was before.
And though a thousand shocks took my substance.
Its internal mutation gave me more.
What’s through summer’s hidden door? I don’t know.
The key: observe, adapt, repeat- and grow.  

Friday, 8 December 2017

Turning 30 years old and Poetry

I had my thirtieth birthday recently. It has been celebrated wonderfully and I was treated and spoiled by friends and family. I was deeply touched by how loving everyone was and my thirtieth birthday has been a very special time.

In writing news, I have been very good and actually have lots of words put together for a future story. Granted, its just lots of notes from my dungeons and dragons campaign, but its something. My friends have been incredible players and together they have made some wonderful characters, and epic moments as we play. I can't wait to write it up one day as stories relating to the main novel.

The bad news is I have been terrible at getting my books published before the year is over. The industry is so hard to crack, and with sales only breaking even, it's difficult to keep the momentum going when publishing new books. The company have wisely slowed down the pace of publishing a little, because too much investment and not enough sales is a dangerous habit for a company to get into. Grimbold Publishing must survive, as it's amazing company. In time I  will get my stories ready to be published, but until then things have ground to a halt.

Some good news is (I think), I have some poetry to share. I wrote a number of poems when I used to work nightshift and always hoped I'd be happy, confident and brave enough to share them by the time I'm thirty. Well, I have achieved those goals and happy to share them with you. I'll post one every few weeks/month. I hope you like them.

  A Break Given To Stop This Breakdown (1-2-2011)

The drive goes on, and on, despite the crash.
While mother earth gestates her element.
Weathering and weakening, then we clash.
Like lightening, my energy is spent.
All of it used to control this machine.
She is unaffected, unstoppable.
I am rust, dents and leaking gasoline.
How to survive? This is impossible!
Harmonise, so we two will win this race.
Achieve wants, and dreams, together as one.
If you condescend for us, show us grace.
Give us a break, then repairs can be don.
Or in a trillion tears we will drown.
If no break given to stop this breakdown. 

Thursday, 12 October 2017

Months Vanish In A Blink

I’m a total stuck record, but as ever, things are taking longer than expected. Luckily, I seem to have shed impatience and time rolls forward without me really being aware.

The reformatting of BoP and art will be done when it can. Its worth waiting for as the quality of formatting/typesetting will be worth the wait. I'm waiting until it is finished before asking to move The Heart of Nature forward so I'll keep posts coming when it does.

In other news, I now have a colouring book of my art published! If you want to take a look go to www.stevenjguscott.com

The last update for this post is about my new addiction. I have started my own Dungeons and Dragons campaign. This has been an amazing lesson in world building and paying attention to small details/mechanics of a society. As ever I don't do things by half and have created the world and the four kingdoms in it from scratch, plus Dming it for ten friends. It has become a vast and insane project, but the creative side to it is glorious. I'm having soooooo much fun!!! Although, I have to ration my obsession as ever to make sure I rest and don't do too much.

Sunday, 16 July 2017

Unseen Potential

Unseen Potential

Often creative projects like stories, music, art etc spend a lot time as potential energy. It begins as an internal idea and ends in the external world with form of some type. The start and end are usually obvious- I have an idea for a story, and I want it to be a book to share with the world. However, sometimes we don’t see the potential of our work. This has happened to me.

Writing has been my main creative focus, but over the years I have also enjoyed drawing and doing what I call my doodles. They have improved with practice, but to me they were for fun and simply another creative outlet. In the last year or two people have complemented them and suggested it would be fun to colour them in.

This has been suggested again by a number of close friends. This has helped me see there is a lot of potential for fun in my drawings, especially when adult colouring books are so popular right now. I spoke to my publisher, Kristell-Ink, and they have agreed to publish a colouring book. This was decided a month or so ago. Since then I have been working hard to tidy up all my drawings so the quality is as good as it can be. All the pieces are done and I’m looking forward to sharing this creative project with everyone.

Other Projects
The Book of Prophecy is getting some awesome art added and will be re-released over the coming month or two.

The sequel, The Heart of Nature, hasn’t moved forward yet, but I’m content waiting.

Over the years I have had to take lots of rest time because of my health stuff. When doing this I listen to a lot of Dungeons and Dragons podcasts/games. I have finally decided to create my own campaign and this is based around a trilogy of books I will write, probably 10-20 years from now. This has already been a lot of fun. Creating the world and the detail needed has been a great learning curve and I can’t wait to see the potential of this story/adventure come together over the coming years.

Monday, 24 April 2017

Politics- My Thoughts and Feelings

Not related to my books, but something I wanted to put into the universe.


We live in a mostly physical reality, where such related things (wealth, physical strength etc) are prioritised and praised. However, there is clearly more to this life than just the physical. Yet, because it dominates our senses it is difficult to tune into the spiritual* and connected compassionate ideologies.

That said, it is clear that the physical and spiritual are linked i.e. it is difficult to focus on the spiritual and compassionate without our basic physical needs being met. Furthermore, physical emotions of happiness, joy and love are linked to the spiritual and very much the bridge between the two parts of what is actually a whole.

Main Body

The truth (I often avoid that word these days due to ambiguity but it is right to use it here) is that we in the west are often fortunate to have our basic needs met but are not content. We then get lost in ambitions of wanting more and more and prioritise gain for the self (I fall into this trap often). We lose sight of the spiritual and compassionate, and become selfish. We need to learn to be at peace with our circumstance- not easy in the slightest, but possible. We can still aim for achievements, but perhaps prioritise them better, or think about WHY we are trying to do something, and what happiness it actually gives us.

I rarely comment on politics because I very much have my own personal views and will vote how I see fit. I do not believe the continual arguments and debates that occur are very beneficial to my goals in life. I am an advocate of choice and have a huge respect for our freedoms to choose- it is very much the core of my own belief system. Often I sit back because I think, ‘who am I to try and influence anyone’s choice.’ Recently I have struggled to know the right thing to do on such subjects as governance and government. I don’t know whether to share my opinions or stay quiet. There is so much turmoil and upheaval and fear about the future that I finally feel I should at the least share some thoughts and feelings. I have always acted the best I can to mirror my beliefs, but often words have to be used as actions are often missed. This is why I have written this.

The definition of governance and government is very important when trying to explain my position on politics. My personal view is that you can measure good governance by how they/we prioritise the poor, weak, innocent, and ill. Your definition may vary, but what goal is more important than the happiness and safety of an individual who is in need of help? As a country we have lost sight of what is important. The leniency towards crimes that take away choice, such as abuse, theft, rape and murder is shocking and breaks my heart each day. Obviously rehabilitation and second chances are important, but never at the cost of the victim. Those in power and who govern have forgotten this.

It is also clear from cut backs to health, and especially mental health and addiction that those in power are not for the people. They do not care for people. Thousands have died from neglect, and many have committed suicide because they have been lost hope- I was nearly one of those people. It took years to finally be taken seriously and get the help I needed.

I don’t know how to actively change such things, but I know it starts with me and how I live my life. It continues with me speaking up and having courage not to be indifferent- the whole evil wins when good people do nothing quote. When I vote I will do so with all the above things as my motivations. I ask humbly and with tears in my eyes that you perhaps decide to do the same.


You may think what I have said is idealistic and na├»ve but it’s because of that thought pattern that such things don’t come about. If we have hope, if we do believe, if we focus on those who truly have our best intentions at heart, then a happy, healthy, loving society can be achieved in time. It starts with us and what choices we make. If we already are trying our hardest to bring about happiness and love then don’t give up. Keep fighting for this in any little way you can until your last breath. Look out for those who need to be loved. Prioritise the spiritual and compassionate over the physical. But most importantly learn to love yourself and who you are. If you do this you will be happier and able to love others even more.

*My own personal understanding- serenity of the soul, calm consciousness, at peace with ones place in the universe and love for all humanity.